Journey to a New Life

My morning sickness has worsened a bit lately and I have now had some vomiting incidents. My stomach is very sensitive, especially now after I have been vomiting two days in a row, and I am never sure what to eat. Initially I was mostly tired and the nausea was quite manageable. I am now less tired but spending more time in bed with my tummy being upset (which might also be why I am not as tired since I spend more time in bed anyway). Movements and smells trigger my stomach very quickly.

I haven’t had any food cravings lately, but have been experiencing more of a general disgust towards a lot, if not most foods. So I have been keeping myself to eating very plain and bland things – fatty things like chips has become an absolute ‘no-no’ and anything with a variety of flavors and tastes can be pretty upsetting as well. I’ve been drinking ginger tea which gives a short relief of the nausea.

One evening I even went to hide in my bed underneath the blankets to stay away from the cooking smells coming from the kitchen which were seriously upsetting my stomach. So far there doesn’t seem to be a particular pattern in terms of being better or worse at evening/noons or mornings.

Mostly I’ve been able to get to my ‘essential’ points that I have to get to in a day (besides studying) – but I am spending a lot of time in bed or just trying to sooth my stomach or pacing around the kitchen and checking out my food options. Within being on the ‘side-line’ and not having any control over my body – I’ve been feeling somewhat useless at times, where it feels like my body and entire existence has been put ‘on hold’ for a moment where I am temporarily only here in function of this growing being inside me. This has sometimes been a bit intense so in my next blogs I will do Self Forgiveness on this point.