Journey to a New Life

When and as I see myself access a negative energy charge in relation to a possibility of pregnancy – I stop and I breathe – I see and realise that this experience is coming from the past where I accepted and allowed myself to build up a definition of pregnancy overtime based on particular inputs such as tv and media without me being the directive principle within this definition building and so I commit myself to stop, breathe and let go of the energy

When and as I see myself connect/link ‘pregnancy’ to ‘ burden’/ ‘bad’ / ‘undesirable news’ – I stop and I breathe – I see and realise that I am coming from an automated response pattern and so I commit myself to disengage the pattern through non-participation

When and as I see myself connect/link ‘pregnancy’ to ‘bad thing’ and ‘shameful’ – I stop and I breathe – I see and realise that I am coming from an automated response pattern and so I commit myself to disengage the pattern through non-participation

When and as I see myself react within fear and anxiety when being faced with a setting where someone has ’ bad news’ and another immediately interprets this as ‘she must be pregnant’ – I stop and I breathe and I commit myself to ground myself into and as my human physical body and let go of the fear as this is not a connection I want to live by

When and as I see myself go into a down/negative energetic experience within seeing the possibility of being pregnant -- where I believe that this is the ‘appropriate response’ to such a possibility – I stop and I breathe – I see and realise that I haven’t actually investigated for myself where I stand in relation to pregnancy but instead just went with an automated response pattern that was in store and so I commit myself to establish ‘who I am’ in relation to pregnancy on my terms from a starting point of principle instead of reaction

When and as I see myself blindly participating within the construct of “pregnancy is bad” without having a reasonable explanation for it, but merely following a ‘feeling’ – I stop and I breathe – I see and realise that I am following a pre-programmed response pattern and so I commit myself to stop, breathe and be the directive principle within letting go of this energy and investigating the pattern within self-forgiveness and self-corrective statements

When and as I see myself react to me being pregnant / my pregnancy from the starting point of ‘I can’t believe I am pregnant’ and ‘this is not who I am’ and ‘this should not have happened to me’ – I stop and I breathe – I see and realise that these were statements/beliefs made from a starting point of personality rather than practical common sense consideration and realism and so I commit myself to let go and use this opportunity to investigate the ideas and beliefs I have created about myself and about pregnancy / people who have kids as this again reflects on my idea of myself as this not ‘fitting in’ with me

When and as I see myself go into fear, anxiety and confusion when being faced with a point that I have not yet investigated for myself and who I am in relation to the point – such as being pregnant – I stop and I breathe – I see and realise that there is no point freaking out about it as this is in no way going to change the situation and so I commit myself to simply investigate / establish myself in relation to the point so I may now give it and myself direction