Journey to a New Life

One night, somewhere in the second week of his life, Gian and I both woke up at the same time and heard strange noise coming from Cesar in his cot. Since my cut was still hurting making me slow – I just told him to “GO!”. He ran out of the bed towards Cesar and turned up the light. Milk was pouring out of his nose and mouth and he was busy choking on it. Then Gian grabbed Cesar and turned him around and held him by his tummy so his legs and arms were hanging down. As Gian was busy describing the situation I got up and made my way to the cot as well to show Gian how to hold Cesar and pat him on the back to get everything out. Gian asked what was going on and I explained to him that he was probably refluxing. Then Gian put him down in a sitting position and then it became clear that he was still not able to breathe upon which Gian went and sucked his nose empty. He could breathe now, though there was still some milk stuck, so I told Gian to get the nasal aspirator – which I described to him what it looks like because he didn’t know what it was and I didn’t know the name back then – and then we cleared out the final bits. Once he was all cleaned up and his mouth and nose were free – he immediately looked totally fine. While he was choking he looked a bit shocked and he was crying as he patted and cleaned out his nose, but once it was over, it was over and he just sat there looking at us, and then started sucking his fist going “Ok now feed me!!if” So then I fed him and he was fine.

While everything was happening, everything went really fast and I did not have much time to think. Though at some point when I saw his face and how he was not able to breathe and choking the one thought came through which was “Oh no what if he dies” – which brought a surge of fear with it. I was able to put the fear aside while handling Cesar with Gian and direct the situation, but then when all was done and we all went back to sleep – I was just lying there filled with anxiety, worrying whether it would happen again. Each time I would hear a noise and it was just him waking up for a feed I felt relieved. While breastfeeding him I applied Self Forgiveness and when I went back to bed I continued with Self Forgiveness there until I eventually at some point fell asleep. The next day I was still in tension of ‘what if it happens again’ and ‘what if it happens again and I don’t wake up / am not here?’

I talked to Sunette and she said there were still some fear points so I continued applying Self Forgiveness throughout the day. There was then still a point, but this she said would be a point to be tested in realtime, where I would only be able to transcend this point if I face a similar situation and walk the correction. He did not reflux that ‘bad’ anymore but now the point of reflux had become more prominent and showing to be a point of discomfort after every feed. Basically, the little flap between the stomach and their esophagus is not yet completely developed and so it is easy for stomach contents to come back up, especially right after a feed when their stomachs are full and you lay them down on their backs.

Now, we had to adjust our routine of feeding, burping, changing and back to feeding to feeding, burping, keep him in upright position for 30 min, to changing, to feeding lol. So now the little time I had had available between feeds had again become smaller. I had done some research on the reflux point during my breastfeeding times and found that conventional treatments given by doctors were not actually cool, as they would mostly prescribe medicine that would neutralize their stomach acid, or make the stomach make less acid – where the rational is ‘if there’s no acid to come up well then there’s no problem’. The thing is that you have acid in your stomach for a reason, and I read many testimonies where babies’ digestive systems had gotten completely compromised – some even for up to a year or longer – by taking such treatment. By targeting the acid, the whole ‘assembly line’ of your digestive system gets compromised - So instead, I opted for homeopathic treatment* which sorted out the problem after a short while and I also took out dairy out of my diet. This is because a cow protein sensitivity could also spike reflux episodes in him, which later got confirmed when I brought diary back into my diet so now I am leaving it out and will test it again when he’s on solids.

It's such a silly design for babies, to have been in the womb for 9 months and then come out with an inadequate digestive system which makes them suffer. Because each time the food comes back up, acid also comes back up which starts to hurt. The baby might then want to eat again just to ease the pain but just ends up refluxing again! Each time I would put him down on his back he would start crying and arching his back -- sometimes even after having held him upright for 30 minutes. Most of the time -- he was just being miserable. Simply things like passing stools and farts was a whole mission and you could see him squirm and push like he was having a real work out, just to get it out. Sometimes it was so hard and painful that this also brought him to tears. Being a baby all in all -- especially in the newborn days -- is no happy ride.


The following interview was done after this event and gives cool insights in terms of what plays out on an interdimensional level when a baby experiences a trauma such as the reflux event we experienced and how parents can assist the baby and themselves to prevent any unnecessary consequence from manifesting.

Traumas from Nature - Perfecting the Human Race - Parenting - Part 33

 

What kinds of physical memories manifest into the body of a baby when it is exposed to a ‘natural physical trauma’ such as having difficulty breathing? What does the baby do on an interdimensional-physical level when its body is going through a ‘natural physical trauma’? How do these physical memories change the body, and how does this change contribute to the mind and to the production of emotional energy later in life?

*I used a homeopathic powder Magen pulv and Nat Phos tissue salts