Wednesday, June 11, 2014

Day 40: PhotoReportage: A Day with Cesar

For a day, I recorded my moves with Cesar while taking some pictures as well. We never know what we are going to do on a particular day. After we have breakfast, it’s mostly a matter of reading him and seeing what he is up to, and then so our day goes.
Enjoy the Day.

07.00 :

Cesar woke up 15-20 min ago, I feed him, he doesn’t want to go back to sleep. I want to go back to sleep. It was a rough night, he woke up several times and would cry in his sleep. I let him crawl around on the bed while I lay closeby and get some extra bits of rest

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08.00 :

I hear Cesar having a poopoo, so I get up and prepare the room to change the diaper and change his clothes

08.15:

I changed his diaper and clothes, it went well, he didn’t try to crawl away on the changing mat and we didn’t battle to get his clothes on

 

I need to pee but there’s no-one around that I can hand him over to, so I set up the bathtub seat in front of the toilet and plonk him in there while I pee

08.30:

I am going to have breakfast now, I put him in the jumparoo while I prepare and eat my breakfast. I also do some dishes and prepare some sprouts for the Parrots. Check my emails on my phone.

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08.50:

Cesar is fascinated with the Bran box, he wants it.

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09.00:

Cesar is showing signs that he doesn’t want to be in the jumparoo anymore. We move to the room, the Bran Box tags along. While he plays on the floor I start cleaning the room up and fold some laundry

 

Cesar is chowing down on the box, once in a while I have to remove some pieces that have fallen off from being saturated with his drool

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09.20:

Cesar seems hungry so I feed him

09.27:

Cesar is done eating and is only interested in chewing my nipple and biting in my hand for pain relief…yay

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When Cesar is all done I wrap him up on me so we can go for a walk and his food can settle before he starts playing on the ground again

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09.40:

We smell something in the air, it smells good – we go check it out!

 

It’s pancakes!

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While we are in the mainhouse we go check out the ‘baby in the mirror’ which Cesar thinks is hilarious

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We hear a strange sound coming from outside. Cesar is looking for the source so – we go check it out!

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It’s LJ working on the tractor. We check what LJ is doing and LJ explains to Cesar what is what. This is a vocabulary lesson for me just as well.

09.44:

We head to the orchard, where we go look at the trees and the fruits, and name the trees and Cesar can explore the leaves and fruits (and put them in his mouth). We say Hi to Blackie on our way

 

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Cesar exploring a chinese guava tree

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Cesar exploring a guava tree

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And an apple tree

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Grapefruit tree

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Naartjie

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Fig Trees

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Papaya

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Mango

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We also say Hi to some of the other dogs

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Gracy does some crazy moves, Cesar thinks it’s funny

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Hi PooCase

10.05:

Cesar is getting fidgety in the wrap, looks like he wants to come out so he can move around so we start going up to our house

10.15:

We made a little stop by Cerise and her study gang where Cesar hung out.

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That’s until his teeth started bothering him, so we went to the house to give him some of his (homeopathic) teething drops.

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Cesar loves his teething drops, he’s all like “GIVE IT TO MEE”

10.20:

Cesar plays on the floor and I take a minute to check my emails and messages. Once in a while I go pick him up and move him back to the center of the playing mat as he crawls backwards to the outskirts and get to the tiles where he tends to hurt himself more easily when he’s being a monkey

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10.30:

I need to go for a poopoo, the house is quiet everyone is still gone, so I take him with me, putting him in the bathtub seat. He is not very impressed playing with just the toys on the seat so I supplement his play with sounds and faces

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10.45:

I gave Cesar a diaper change and put him back on the mat. I play some lectures on the History of Economic Thought to aid me with my studies for my exams. In the meantime I continue with the rest of the laundry. As I move around to put back the clothes I interact and play with Cesar.

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Cesar is not very impressed with laying on his back when changing his diaper

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He thinks it’s better if I change his diaper while he crawls on the mat
I explain to him that it doesn’t work that way, we’ve had this talk before – we tried it, it didn’t work
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11.00:

Cesar is in pain of teething (and he just bit me in my shoulder again) – so giving him teething drops again

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The misery of being a baby

11.10:

Cesar’s teething pain seems to really be getting to him so he is being totally encapsulated by the pain, so I play with him to direct his focus on something other than the pain he is in

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Nomnomnomnom

11.30:

Finally done putting the laundry away. Cesar is hungry so I feed him

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11.40:

Cesar fell asleep. I am going to leave him to sleep on my lap while I check an assignment. Don’t want to risk waking him up by moving him.

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11.41:

Nevermind – internet is down, so I study instead

12.30:

Studying with Cesar on my lap is now rather uncomfortable. My back is hurting. I’m still a bit tired from last night so I move him and myself to the bed – that is , if I can get there without waking him up.

 

Mission accomplished, he did not wake up. Now I rest.

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13.30:

Cesar wakes up on the bed. He has a bewildered and confused look on his face. It says ‘This is not where I fell asleep’.

 

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As he realizes what happened and that he is okay – everything’s soon monkey business as usual.

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13.45:

We go have lunch, but first a quick pee.

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I put him in the jumparoo, he watches how I make food and I show him what I do and what I use. I mash some plain avo for him while I make my own lunch.

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After a while Maite comes out of her room. She has been secluding herself in an attempt to avoid and resist being mesmerized by Cesar’s amazingness as she really has to study. But one can only resist Cesar for so long. So she came out and fed him some of his avo.

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15.00:

We had lunch and did our dishes. While doing dishes I reflect on how it always looks like I get ‘nothing done’ through my day and start going into Adam Smith’s theory of productive and unproductive labour and how this relates to motherhood. This is a bad sign.

I had to review something for someone so took Cesar with me to do that. Now I am having something to drink, after that I feed him again, change his diaper and spend some time outside with him before I go to horses and Maite takes him over from me.

15.25:

We’re at the spending some time outside part, he is not happy with his teeth, rubbing his mouth and gums against my chest as we walk.

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Not so happy baby, we go and name more things
weird caterpillar home in tree

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Ba Na Na Trees

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Berry Brush Bush

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Chickens

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Chaaaarlieee

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16.00:

I go to horses to exercise Charlie, bandage him and give him food so I handover Cesar to Maite

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17.30:

Back from horses, looks like Maite has been watering the plants and trees outside with Cesar.

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17.40:

Playing with Cesar on the mat while trying to open an assignment with incredibly slow internet

18.00:

Feeding Cesar again at my desk while I study

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18.20:

Cesar dozed off while eating (or what I call ‘sleating’ – where he sleeps and eats at the same time). He is up now.He cries, he sliced his face with one of his nails. Sometimes he acts like Cesar Scissorhands. I go change his diaper once he settles down.

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Prune his Scissorhands

18.40:

Gian comes home from work. He holds Cesar for a moment before he goes off to do more work.

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I change Cesar into his evening attire, he almost threw everything off the changing table in the process – but we survived.

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We go and hang out with the dogs

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19.15:

We have dinner and feed Cesar some food that I defrosted for him earlier.

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19.40:

We are done eating and go to Pony Treats

 

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20.00:

I have to attend a chat, I put Cesar down on the mat and hope he can entertain himself for long enough until the chat is over.

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20.20:

I put Cesar on my lap as he’s done entertaining himself, I play with him while still chatting.

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20.30:

I feed Cesar again, he likes to eat more frequently for shorter amount of times when the teething pain increases, it helps take the edge of. I keep chatting.
After he is done eating he bounces around on my lap and I take turns entertaining him and typing.

21.00:

I change Cesar’s diaper and put him = in the glider as he looks exhausted and quickly falls asleep. I check and respond to some emails.DSC01209

 

21.30:

Gian is done working, Monkey is sleeping. We decide to take a short bath together to relax, get clean and catch up on each other’s day. We give the baby monitor to Maite and LJ so they can take care of Cesar if he wakes up.

21.40:

We hear Cesar cry from the bath. It’s the kind of cry where we know he is in a lot of pain. There’s a pause – we look at eachother – we get out of the bath, I wrap a towel around me and go check on Cesar. I go into the room and LJ is holding him, he is still crying. Me and Gian linger around in our towels watching Cesar by Maite and LJ to check whether we should abandon the bath or whether Cesar is ok enough for us to go back. He seems alright after a few minutes so we resume our bath. After a minute or so Maite lets us now he is ok to assure us while we are in our bath.

22.00:

Cesar is crying but doesn’t seem too bad, after a while it escalates and Maite comes knocking saying it’s time to come now because he’s probably hungry now as well. Get out of the bath and get dressed and ready.

22.15:

I get Cesar and feed him.

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22.40:

Cesar is almost sleeping, I leave him on my lap a bit longer until he is sleeping nicely, then I move him to the bed. Then I study again.

24.00:

I go lay next to Cesar and read a bit from a book so I don’t fall asleep dreaming about economics.

00.30:

I put the book away, change Cesar’s diaper while he sleeps and then go sleep myself. Hopefully this night’s better than the last.

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THE END

(Not really, he wakes up a few times and I feed him, he cries from his teeth during the night and we restart our adventures the next day:) )

Sunday, June 1, 2014

Day 39: The Desteni of Living - My Declaration of Principle

meandc I commit myself to Live by the following Principles and to Teach my child these Principles by Living Example:

1. Realising and living my utmost potential

2. Living by the principle of what is best for all – guiding me in thought, word and deed to always in all ways direct problems to the best possible outcome for all

3. Living by the principle of self honesty – to ensure I am pure in thought, word and deed: that my within and without is equal and one. Who I am within is who I am without and vice-versa

4. Self Purification through Writing, Self Forgiveness and Self Application – the action of realising I am responsible for my own thoughts, words and deeds, to forgive myself for transgressions and change myself to ensure I take responsibility for who, what and how I am and through this know that I can trust myself to always be honest with me and so others

5. Living the principle of Self Responsibility – realising only I am responsible for what I accept and allow inside of me, my relationships and my outside world and so with this responsibility: only I have the power and ability to change that which I see is compromising who I am, what I live and how this affects others

6. Realising that who I am in thought, word and deed affects not only myself – but others as well and so with Self Responsibility in thought, word and deed – I take responsibility for myself and so my relationships to be Self Aware in every moment and live in such a way that is best for me and so others as well

7. Living the Principle of Self Awareness – to be aware, to see, to recognize my own thoughts and Mind, to be self honest to the extent where I can take responsibility for when I see my thoughts / Mind is not what is best for me / others and commit to immediately take responsibility and change for myself and so for others

8. With taking responsibility for myself, becoming aware of myself – take responsibility and become aware of others in my life, to assist and support them as I am assisting and supporting myself – to give as you would like to receive and do the extra bit every day to see where I can contribute to other’s lives and so my own

9. Living the principle of self trust – as I commit myself to remain constant in my living of self honesty, self responsibility and self awareness, I stand as an unbending trust that I always in all ways know who I am no matter what I face and that in this I know, as proven in the constancy of my living that I will always honour and stand by what is best for all and so best for me

10. Making Love Visible – through me not accepting/allowing anything less than my utmost potential, I support those in my life to reach their utmost potential, to love them as I have shown love to myself by gifting to me my utmost potential, the best life/living experience and show others as I have shown myself what it means to LIVE

11. No one can save you, save yourself – the realisation that the tools and principles of Desteni is the guide, but I must walk the path myself. We are here to assist and support each other in this process from Consciousness to Awareness/LIFE and what it means to live – but the process itself, where you are alone with yourself in your own Mind: is walked alone

12. Not waiting for anything or anyone to take responsibility for me and this world – but that I realise I have created who and how I am in this moment, therefore I have the responsibility to change who and how I am and so the realisation that we as a collective created how and what this world is today and so it is the responsibility of the collective to change how and what this world is today

13. Honouring the life in each person, animal – everything from the great to the small of earth, that we expand our awareness and responsibility to creating the best possible life for everyone and everything and so ourselves

14. Relationships as Agreements: individuals coming together using agreements as a platform to one-on-one expand, grow and develop as individuals in life and living to support/assist each other unconditionally to reach their utmost potential where the agreement is a coming together of individuals understanding what it means to stand as equals and to stand as one

15. Sex as Self Expression – where sex is an united expression between individuals in honour, respect, consideration and regard of each other as equals, two physical bodies uniting in equality and oneness – a merging of two equals as one physically.

16. Realising that by the virtue of me being in this world – my responsibility does not only extend to my own Mind / my own Life, but to the minds and lives of everything and everyone of this earth and so my commitment is to extend this awareness to all of humanity to work together and live together to make this world heaven on earth for ourselves and the generations to come

17. I must in my thoughts, words and deeds – but most importantly in my living actions, become a living example for others in my world that is noticeable and visible when it comes to the potential of a person to change themselves and so change their world. So that more people can realise how we can change this world, by standing united in our self change within the principle of what is best for all to bring heaven to earth

18. I am the change I want to see in me and my world – to bring heaven to earth is to bring into being, into living the LIVING PROOF of a PRACTICAL HEAVEN that can be seen and heard in our actions and words. We are the Living Heaven that must come into creation in this living world.

19. Through purifying my thoughts, words and deeds – my inner becomes my outer, so I bring into creation me as heaven into earth, realising it is not enough to ‘see the change / be the change’ – for change to become REAL it must be a constant, consistent living of me through the words I speak and the actions I live visible and noticeable to all in every moment of breath

20. Realising that my physical body is my temple – my physical body is the living flesh through which and in which I will bring into being and create / manifest heaven on earth as me in my thoughts, words and deeds and so I honour, respect and regard – nurture and support my physical body as I would nurture and support me as equals: my body is me

21. We are the change in ourselves and this world we have been waiting for: and so I commit to dedicate myself and my life for each one as all to realise this, as nothing will change if we don’t change in all that we are, within and without

22. The realisation that for me to be able to change myself in thought, word and deed to the most effective living being that I can be and become – I first have to ‘know thyself’ and so commit myself to investigate, introspect and understand how I became who I am today, to prepare the road before me into self creation of a responsible, aware, self honest and trustworthy person for myself and so for all

23. The realisation that for me to be able to contribute to change in this world – I have to get to ‘know thyself’ as this world and so commit myself to research, investigate and introspect the inner and outer workings of this world and align the systems of today to present and give the best possible life for all on Earth

Friday, April 25, 2014

Day 38: Introduction | Motherhood Paranoia

motherhood If you have or have had a baby in your life, you are probably acquainted with the concept of ‘developmental milestones’.
If you are not familiar with the concept, it basically refers to particular behaviors or physical skills seen in babies (and older infants as well) at particular stages in their life/development – hence ‘developmental milestone’. Whenever you go for a baby-check up, the doctor or nurse tending to your baby will want to assess where your baby is at by evaluating your babies ability or inability to perform particular actions. Particular months/weeks of a baby’s life are tied to particular milestones, which a baby would reach if they follow a ‘typical’ developmental path. These refer to averages and in general there is quite a margin for being ‘early’ or ‘late’ to reach a milestone without this being any point of concern.
While the use and reference to developmental milestones is supposed to be of a practical nature, I have found both in my personal experience and observing other mothers – that it can be quite an emotional topic.
When we speak and think of mothers, we very often see and present mothers in a light where they are overwhelmed with worries and concerns about their children. When it was known that I was going to be a mother, I got welcomed by a few people to a reality with ‘non-stop-fear’ or telling me to ‘get ready to worry endlessly’. It’s as if being a mother and living in fear is a given. Since I’ve been a mother I’ve faced my fair deal or fears, and it wouldn’t surprise me if the ‘worried mom’ phenomena starts right at the beginning with the developmental milestones.
Birth
In a way, birth itself it could be interpreted as a developmental milestone. When the baby gets born, one of the first things that gets done by the pediatrician that is present, is checking the baby’s Apgar score. The Apgar score is a method designed to evaluate the baby’s physical condition, and to quickly ascertain whether or not there is a need for special medical care or emergency treatment.

The factors that get looked at are: appearance of the skin, the heart rate, grimace response, activity and muscle tone and respiration. Each one of these factors is evaluated on a scale from 0 to 2 – and then added together, so that you have end score between 0 and 10 (10 being perfect). This scoring test gets done at 1 minute after birth and 5 minutes after birth.

This is the first instance where your child gets measured and is assigned a ‘score’, where you get to know ‘whether your child is normal’ – and so the perfect moment for motherhood paranoia to set in.

Next, your baby gets weighed and measured – again, the perfect moment for interpretation and paranoia to creep in: Is my baby too skinny? Is my baby too fat? Should I have eaten differently while I was pregnant? What’s wrong with me for giving birth to a baby that’s skinny/small/big/large?

On the other hand, if everything is ‘in range’ (which really only means that your baby hit the statistical average), mother proudness can show its face – who’s best friends with motherhood paranoia. Because instead of going ‘Oh no I probably did all of this and that wrong’, the mind goes ‘I must be such a good mother for producing such a healthy baby!!’.

It’s only day one – and you’re already on the road to becoming a mental case lol.
To be continued

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